What does being a dad mean........?

Well seeing as fathers day is tomorrow I thought I would take a minute to talk about how much my dad means to me. My dad has always been my hero, he's hard working, he puts others before himself always. He has made endless sacrifices for our family. And he is a saint for putting up with 6 children not to mention having 5 daughters! He has had his share of moments when I am sure he would rather trade all of us in for a million dollars just to make things less stressful, I mean who hasn't thought of trading their lives in for something easier . My dad is a pretty quiet easy going guy but when he says something you better listen cause its usually the best advice your gonna hear, and he's always right. I have been so lucky to have him as my dad and I wouldn't trade him for anything in the world he will always be my biggest fan and will always be there to catch me when I fall and to tell me he loves me at the most unexpected moments.
Love you dad, thanks for always being there when I needed and for being he coolest dad a daughter could ask for!

Anxiety, sadness, doubt, anger

These 4 words explain the feelings that me and all my family have felt over the last 2 months. In Decemeber, on my birthday to be exact my mom found out that she needed to go for test because they were worries she might have ovarian cancer..................(gulp!). Those last two words are burnt into my mind and will forever be. Never thought those words would be connected to my mom in anyway. She was untouchable....she would always be around nothing bad would ever happen to the most caring, loveable, sincere, beautiful God could have created, NOTHING. I went from smiling to crying within 5 minutes.....throughout the whole day. My world had stopped. But wait........we didn't know for sure yet, it was only the first step......we would have to wait 2 months before he could even get in for the test, or as soon as possible the doctors said. If there is one thing I have inherited from my mom it her ability to always worry. I mean with six children I can't blame her. I had to step back for a minute and relax, I had to put it in Gods hands and let him take care of it.

A month went by and I was doing pretty good just letting him handle it. It helps having such great sisters to talk to. Whenever one of us were feeling worried or anxious we would call each other. I truly do have the best family.........

I have never looked at my mom with such respect and admiration. She will always be my hero, she confronts everything in her life with such grace and perserverence. I want to be like her.

My mom went for her last appointment of 4 in the past week and it was about 2 weeks ago that I woke up and the sun was blazing through my window.......I wondered what was so special about today that we were graced with the sun, what did HE want to tell me. I walked up stairs to get ready for the day and my mom stopped me with a smile........." Hi, sweetie.........I am okay!"......what? what was she trying to tell me? I paused and walked away wondering, she stopped me...." Missa(what she has always called me) I got the call from the doctor, your gonna have to put up with me for a while longer." NEVER in my life have I felt so relieved!!!! I have never gave her a more tight meaningful hug.
Mom you have blessed my life with lessons, love, and light. There is not another women out there that could be a more perfect momma to me then YOU. You were put into my life for a reason and I am so thankful for you.
Always and forever momma <3

Its Novemeber already!!!

WOW, I can't believe that we are almost half way through Novemeber already! Where has the time gone? I can't wait for Christmas time! Yesterday we put up our Christmas tree and it looks fabulous! I can't wait to celebrate in our new house this year. There is so much more room it will be GREAT! I can't wait for this semester to be over and exams and all that jazz. It will be great to be able to relax and not have school to think about. BRING ON CHRISTMAS!
What do you look forward to the most about Christmas???

Happy half 1st birthday Allaya Violet

Well at the risk of being that cheesy auntie who likes to acknowledge the milestones in her nieces life, Happy 6 month birthday to my little niece. I can't believe how big she has gotten, she just started to roll over and get sooo excited when people cheer for her after. I can't wait to see my lil bug this weekend and get lots of cuddles. Love it!

-lil bug 6 months old!

Sweet faces...

I love my nieces!! They have gotten me through some pretty hard days over the last little while. They are such precious little girls and I am so glad my sister had these sweet faces............

Life is Precious

So within the last week a family friend has commited suicide and my Aunt Kathy( best friends mom) had open heart surgery yesterday!......NO BIGGIE or anything! So its been a very emotional few days. Make sure you hug the ones you love. Its hard to get ones brain around....I feel almost like life doesn't make sense anymore. Its hard to find happiness anymore. Whats the point? .......this quote makes a lot of sense right now, its the only thing that really does..... " There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course.Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness."

My beautiful girls

There is so much joy in being an auntie, I just love it! My nieces are two of the most special little girls on the planet. Although they are sisters they are both very different. The oldest is Milana or as I call her my lil roo. Energetic is the main word I would use to describe our little blessing. There isn't a moment she misses, she is always running so care free exploring the world. She is never one without words. Sensitive is the other word that fits her so well, she is very good at picking up other peoples emotions and is very curious as to why that person may be feeling that way. I remember one day she asked me, " Auntie Missa, are you happy or sad?". I answered with, " Auntie is just a little bit sad today," which she responded with " Is everything going to be okay, after I give you a hug?". A few weeks ago her grandma on her dads side passes away and she was talking to me about it and she explained to me " We had to go to a funeral because daddy's mommys heart broke." I couldn't help but grab her and give her a big hug. Such innocence inside a blonde curly haired little 4 year old. She takes so much out of everyday life I am sure she will live one of the fullest lives out of anyone I know.

Then theres Allaya who I call little bug, she acquired that name when she was first born and was as tiny as a little bug and I just knew she would be a little cuddler. Allaya is a very calm natured baby girl, so content with many people around her, she is more relaxed than her big sister. She isn't a crier at all, she is happy and talkative. She enjoys listening to her big sister talking and singing to her. Whenever she is a little unsettled Milana will sing and talk to her and she gets the biggest smile across her face, its so priceless. She is such a simple joy to have around and cuddle!

My sweeties have been such a blessing in my life. I treasure my time with them so much.

Auntie Missa loves you girls sooo much!