These 4 words explain the feelings that me and all my family have felt over the last 2 months. In Decemeber, on my birthday to be exact my mom found out that she needed to go for test because they were worries she might have ovarian cancer..................(gulp!). Those last two words are burnt into my mind and will forever be. Never thought those words would be connected to my mom in anyway. She was untouchable....she would always be around nothing bad would ever happen to the most caring, loveable, sincere, beautiful God could have created, NOTHING. I went from smiling to crying within 5 minutes.....throughout the whole day. My world had stopped. But wait........we didn't know for sure yet, it was only the first step......we would have to wait 2 months before he could even get in for the test, or as soon as possible the doctors said. If there is one thing I have inherited from my mom it her ability to always worry. I mean with six children I can't blame her. I had to step back for a minute and relax, I had to put it in Gods hands and let him take care of it.
A month went by and I was doing pretty good just letting him handle it. It helps having such great sisters to talk to. Whenever one of us were feeling worried or anxious we would call each other. I truly do have the best family.........
I have never looked at my mom with such respect and admiration. She will always be my hero, she confronts everything in her life with such grace and perserverence. I want to be like her.
My mom went for her last appointment of 4 in the past week and it was about 2 weeks ago that I woke up and the sun was blazing through my window.......I wondered what was so special about today that we were graced with the sun, what did HE want to tell me. I walked up stairs to get ready for the day and my mom stopped me with a smile........." Hi, sweetie.........I am okay!"......what? what was she trying to tell me? I paused and walked away wondering, she stopped me...." Missa(what she has always called me) I got the call from the doctor, your gonna have to put up with me for a while longer." NEVER in my life have I felt so relieved!!!! I have never gave her a more tight meaningful hug.
Mom you have blessed my life with lessons, love, and light. There is not another women out there that could be a more perfect momma to me then YOU. You were put into my life for a reason and I am so thankful for you.
Always and forever momma <3
Mom you have blessed my life with lessons, love, and light. There is not another women out there that could be a more perfect momma to me then YOU. You were put into my life for a reason and I am so thankful for you.
Always and forever momma <3
